Three years ago

Here are some pictures of Mark...in March...3 years ago.

Memories are so fresh in my mind that it feels like it was all just yesterday.

Feeling his soft skin and hair...looking into those big, beautiful brown eyes...

having his chubby little fingers wrapped around mine...holding him.

I can close my eyes and feel it all so vividly. If I just concentrate, I know that I

can bring him back to me...he can't really be gone.

At the same time, if it weren't for pictures...I would swear that none of it

happened...it seems so long ago.

It is impossible to explain and even harder for me to sort it all out in my mind.

There are times that I know I must be losing all sense of reality. I feel that I am

living in a dream world of what really is, what was and everything

that I long for in eternity.

For now, I have these pictures of my baby boy...

when he WAS here...

in March...

three years ago.