There's no tragedy in life like the death of a child. Things never get back to the way they were.

Dwight D. Eisenhower

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

A certain 7 year old big sister is definitely missing her little brother. It always amazes me to hear what my girls hide in their hearts.

This morning...

"Mom...if Maegan makes it to be a teenager, we will have so much fun together."

"IF? What do you mean Macy?" (said the mother who was afraid that she already knew the answer)

"You know, if she doesn't die like Mark did."

This evening...

"Mom, I think that Heaven is going to be so beautiful!"

"Yes is going to be wonderful. Especially because Mark will meet us when we get there".

"Meet us? Do you know that for SURE Mom?"

"No, I guess that I don't know for sure...but that is what I pray for."

"Me too Mom. When I see Mark my heart is going to burst into a million pieces!"

Mine too Macy...mine too.


  1. Burst into a million pieces is right.

    Mine, too...

    Cathy in Missouri

  2. mine talk like that all the time too. the day my rainbow turned one year old, she slept in past the time she usually awakened. i took the opportunity to wake up my big girl first. her first words were, "are you sure she's still alive? have you checked?" my heart still cries for the innocence lost.

    by the way, the book "i'll hold you in heaven" brought great peace to my heart over the issue of whether or not they'll be in heaven. it might help you too.

  3. I am constantly checking to see if my rainbow baby is still breathing. I think that it will always be a constant concern because I know how life can change in an instant.

    PS- I let my daughter read "Heaven is for Real" and it really helped her to know that she will see her brother again.