There's no tragedy in life like the death of a child. Things never get back to the way they were.

Dwight D. Eisenhower

Monday, April 5, 2010


It seems that aside from all of the "normal" days,
holidays and birthdays are the hardest
in this journey of grief.
A special day comes and taunts me...reminding me
of Mark - that he isn't with us to celebrate.
At best it is an all-consuming ache that won't go away, although
focusing on the girls and attempting to live with joy
for their sakes is helpful.

This Ressurection Sunday was a reminder of many things...
a reminder of Mark on Easter morning 2 years ago...
(I still have his plastic Easter bucket and don't ever plan on
getting rid of it)

remembering his last egg hunt here with us...

(at Grandma and Grandpa's)

(at Nana and Papa's)

but most importantly...
Ressurection Sunday reminds me that no matter
how difficult it is living here without him,
I can have peace in knowing
that because Jesus came to earth,
lived, died and rose from the grave...
I will be with Mark again.
Thank you Jesus!


  1. Your post triggered buckets of tears this morning. Laynee sat in that very same high chair that Mark is in. Such a small thing but a bittersweet reminder of all that has been lost. How is it that I can so love this little Mark, whom I've never met? How can I ache so for his loss?
    Loving Laynee and Missing Mark

  2. I just came across your blog and wanted to say how sorry I am for the loss of your beautiful son.

  3. Hi Angie,
    You are so welcome. I have been following your blog for quite a few months now. I sent you an email on Friday and due to some techincal difficulties thought I may have offended you in some way. I'm hoping not since you commented on my blog! :):):) Check your email. You are in my daily prayers! :) God Bless You!

  4. Thanks for the happy thoughts you left on my blog. I can surely see Mason teaching Mark all about baseball. In some wierd ways, Mason's birthday this year was harder than last year. I think I was still in shock last year and now reality has really set in. Your comment made me smile. :)